New Beginnings

After a formal reprimand from Jaime, it seemed high time to write a new post! The good news, is that I have had one brewing..

So far this year has been full of exciting changes. We bought our first home - a lovely townhouse in our favorite place in the world. It's been a little stressful at times, moving and painting, renovating, but the very thought that it's ours, and we can do things to it without needing permission - is a grande feeling indeed! It hasn't totally sunk in yet.. but it's weird because I'm realizing there are so many first's in our lives. The first date.. the first kiss..etc.. and the "first home" seems to be one of the big milestones. It's no wonder people have been hinting about kids to us as of late - ods bodkins!!! That actually excites me, since I know God has the timing for all that in hand :)

All that aside.. I've been finding myself asking the question lately.. "So..what's next?". It's a great question to ask I think.. as long as we know the answer from above may not come right away, or in the way we think it'll happen. Wild..to look back at even at even a year ago - God has answered all our prayers.. most notably us being able to buy our first place at last! It gets me to thinking though... since he knows the secret things in our hearts that we don't ask.. and since I have no idea what comes next... what do I do now? I totally relate to a blog I read recently that was along the same lines. I find I am always looking to the next thing. The next event, the next obstacle, the next thing I have to overcome in order to enjoy life, the next job, the next home, the next...[fill in blank here].

The truth is.. I'm not ungrateful - on the contrary I thank the Lord almost everyday for the things he has given me. But, I think I'm perhaps at a new place where I need to be content to not know what's coming next. I know he's stirring things in my heart... new things... things I haven't felt before.. passions.. emotions..kindgom.. but I just don't know what to do with it. I know he'll show me.. it's just that for me it feels... new. Like I haven't been here before.. uncharted waters.... Perhaps that's the point.